Do you understand Transgender? It is a variant of normal human existence. My story is based on my life journey. It starts in the days when Transgender was not recognised even by most psychologists. The life struggle of hiding one’s real awareness of themselves and trying to fit into the mould of society as it was in those days. Marriage to a partner. The ongoing struggle, both for the trans person and their spouse. These are explored through the perspective of my own life; much of the story is fiction and much is really autobiographical. Many of the incidents happened to me. My final story line is pure fiction though I could have chosen other (very sad) endings. My hope for you is that my story will help you to understand the stresses and the inner reality of being transgender. I did not choose to be transgender. Nor did I suddenly decide I would be trans. I have always been trans but for much of my life I tried to suppress it.